Personality Identifiers

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In my free time, I daydream.  I think about the things I would like to improve on, skills I would want to learn or something in particular I’ve never done before and would think “Hey, I could do that.”  I think about the things I would want to learn as attributes that’ll help me move along in life.  Some people call these hobbies or skills, gifts or expertise.  I call them personality identifiers. 

Taking it back to the younger years, in High School and even middle school, we are introduced to sports, music and art on an educational scale.  Well at least I was at that age.  We are given these personality identifiers that we can take upon ourselves to help us grow and mature in ways outside of the norm.  Having the base layer and just adding things on top.  For me, I loved sports so that’s what I pursued.  I didn’t make any of the teams I tried out for directly but was offered their sub-categories such as “redshirt” in basketball that said “we want you, not that much to put you on the team,” or so I thought.  I look back on that time and all I see is politics. But, that’s beside the point.

I know each of us dream of things we want to be good at.  Skills we wished we had to do things that we love to watch but never have the guts to actually try.  Take Football (soccer for my English speaking brethren) for example.  The guys and gals that play this sport professionally can only do so because of the amount of hours and days and weeks and years of practice they have put into it.  If we watched a game and went out to try exactly what they did, we would fail miserably.  We only become good at something we practice over and over again, until the point it becomes a part of us.  With any type of sport, musical instrument or artistic painting or sculpture, they’re only as good as the one who does them and the one who does them is only as good because of the amount of practice he or she puts into it. 

When I first started playing the guitar, I never would have thought it would’ve taken me where it has.  I started out slow, learning the basic chords, then rhythm putting them both together to play a song.  Music for me was something I did because I liked it.  Over time it has transformed into something that I identify with personally and spiritually.  I’m no professional but I’ve grown more spiritually through music and playing music than I have in any other way.  Through sports, I’ve been able to connect with those around me who have no other outlet but that.  I have a desire to become a really good mountain climber, snowboarder and surfer and later on down the road a father.  You see, everything we are good at or aren’t good at has a purpose to identify us in some way to other people.  They see us playing an instrument or dribbling a ball and can immediately relate to us because of that first impression.

When we see the multitude of skills and things to do out in the world, it may seem we can live our lives without ever having to stop learning.  And that’s true.  One big thing I would want to encourage you as you read this now is that our relationship with Christ is not comparable to a skill, attribute or personality identifiers. It’s something that effects the very outcome of our lives.  To practice prayer and fasting, intercession and worship leading, talking with Jesus, sitting silent to hear His voice are all things we should practice.  Not solely because we want to be good at them but because they’re fun and rewarding just like the other skill we’ve mastered.  As everything, we are encouraged when we start but become discouraged by the lack of change.  We live in a world and have developed a mindset to see change in a short amount of time.  On certain things, this is true but when it comes to the self (you and me) and the skills we possess, it takes a little time.  It takes time to become good at something and when it comes to the Kingdom of God, we will never become experts but will always remains students learning something new every day. 

One personality identifier I want is to always know my identity is found in Christ, not in the things I amount to.  I can learn all the skills offered and become a pro and every sport imaginable.  With all those things I may think I’m somebody but without the love of Christ and the identity I have in Him, I am nothing.  

“If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.  And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.  If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.” 1 Corinthians 13:1-3 (ESV)

So Small

Flying at night can be a special euphoric moment for those who have the courage to look out the window.  Like those sweet summer nights when the clouds retreat back and you’re left with a heavenly performance of stars as they begin to dance before you, flying is one of those things that suspends time and leaves you floating (literally).  One thing that always bugged me when I rode on a plane was that you could never look up to see the stars.  I would always try but the awkwardness of the seats and the position of the windows prohibited it.  I went to school in the mountains of North Carolina where stars and galaxies were an everyday occurrence as you stood on the peak of some mountain looking up to the heavens on a clear night.  I often think back on what God was doing when He first created the heavens and the earth.  The Bible says that God knows every star in the sky and calls them by name (Psalm 147:4).

A little overwhelming and humbling if you ask me.  God, the creator of earth and heaven, seen and unseen, majestic and unique knows every star in the night sky but more importantly knows my name and yours.  I often forget this ever so big attribute of God.

Isaiah 49:16 – “Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.”

Looking up to the thick sea of blackness called “night” God created on the first day seeing the beauty it holds, I see how truly small I am.  I’ve talked with countless college students whose number one goal in life was to make people notice them either through clothing styles, sports or careers.  The things we think people are prone to notice more in our lives.  We struggle to make ourselves known in a world of billions because we’re trying to impress the wrong people.  We are small, but God is so much bigger!

As I sit waiting for the plane to take off, I peer out the window at the creation of God I know and love.  Seeing the things as they are reminds me of where I am in life.  Birds flying overhead, the clouds moving at no ones pace but theirs, the breeze moving the trees in an elegant style of dancing only known to the spiritual realms of life.  There’s nothing that’ll change my course or who I am except God.  I’m content with where I’m at.  The plane begins down the runway, gaining speed with every second and just at the right moment, lifts off the ground and begins to climb higher and higher.  What were once big cities and buildings, skyscrapers, towns, houses, homes and schools are reduced to blurred outlines of their former selves that resembled the sands of the seas, sitting nicely in the palm of my hand.  I’m on top of the world but once something comes up, it eventually comes down.

As I sat there flying 600 MPH at 31,000 feet, I realized there’s never a median.

There is no median in this world.  We cannot attain a status that will surpass the creations of God nor will we ascend to the right hand of the creator.  We were created for another purpose, to be the people God took time to invest in, to create a relationship with that’ll confound the most brilliant minds of today.  We are 100% without a shadow of a doubt dependent on the Lord!

As you gaze into the heavens on a starry night or look down at the world through the double plated window of a plane, there remains that constant reminder of how small we are as the people who inhabit the earth.  As Children created by the Maker of Heaven, King of Kings, Jehovah Rafa, etc. etc. we have a duty to rely on God.  God made us so uniquely that angels look curiously at this relationship we share with their master.

You see, as small as you may think you are, you’re probably right.  God is a big God and it can be a little hard to visualize the impact we could have in God’s story but God, being as big as he is, knows us intimately and uniquely and has such a beautiful place of honor reserved for you in His courts.  The Father of all, everything you see, is looking directly past our mistakes and failures to the center of our being where we are small children reliantly following after Him hand in hand.

Change of Heart, Change of Mind.

It’s been a while since the last time I wrote.  What I’m about to write may come off as a little harsh at times but I’m being real with you, allowing you to see what I felt long ago when I thought ministry was about placement, stature and how you measured up to your fellow believers instead of it being about serving, loving and humility.  The mercy that flows from God to us gives us the freedom and accessibility to become more like Him and less like us.  I knew I believed that but it took a lot for me to put it into practice.  It took some time for me to become more acquainted with what God was doing through me, not just around me.

My time in Nicaragua has come and gone, for now.  As I sit here thinking back on everything God has done and all the places He’s taken me, I want to take you back to a frustrating part of a missionaries life and show you how great the Lord’s redemptive spirit is.  Let me explain to what I thought before Jesus changed it all…

Much of what I did in Nicaragua would not be feasible here in the U.S. and it burdened my heart to push through this detestable ideal we’ve created, surrounding “the power of God” and how for some believers, it’s dead and no longer exists. I want to set free that fire inside and allow God the freedom to do what He pleases through us.  When I was in Nicaragua, I had developed this manner of thinking which caused me to see ministry, as a whole, as something I only wanted to do outside the United States.  The United States made me sick to my stomach by how weak it portrayed itself spiritually.  Christ was getting neglected and we, His ambassadors, were doing nothing about it because of the simple-minded politicians and Animal rights activists or whoever that felt like jumping on the band wagon.  It was hard coming from a country where Jesus is openly talked about and into one where, yes you can talk about it but not openly or freely without jumping through hoop after hoop after hoop.  Jesus is God!!  I found myself reading verses of the Bible in such a way to justify what I felt; to make myself feel like I was doing the right thing and everyone else was wrong.  I wasn’t downplaying those who were trying (i.e. pastors, local missionaries, some churches etc.) I was frustrated with those who talked about it like they were professionals yet did nothing to validate what they were displaying. This lack of knowledge or care for what God is doing destroys the veracity of those who are trying and working for its advancement.   It resembled the religious system the Pharisees of Jesus’ day publicized.  Modern day Pharisees having the makings of strong and powerful faith yet lacked the internal flame that made it true.

I was so sick with it that I hated even being near this form of Christianity.  I was bitter and hated going to church because it seemed a level lower of what I was use to.  I’d critique everything and everyone I saw.  I think it’s safe to say my way of thinking was pretty jacked up.

I spent two months in Nicaragua, October 19th through December 19th.  While I was there, I knew there was a change in my spirit.  God was taking me in a different direction, one that was a little bit outside what I was use to.  That man that only a year ago hated the U.S. and wanted nothing to do it now desires to live and do the same work, displaying the same God, living in the same power.

Where I lost it was in the transition.  In Nicaragua, it’s easy!  It’s easy to feel the power of God there because that is all those people have.  They have nothing else.  While I was living there, I got use to this lifestyle so that when I returned to the U.S., my heart was affected in grand ways due to the dissimilarities.  Confusion set in and I was destroyed from the inside out.  It’s real folks.  Satan can use even good things to cause confusion and divide your assessment of life and divert your attention away from God or give you a skewed version of Him.  So, as I was living and working for the two months I had in Nicaragua, God was also working within me changing things up and giving me new dreams and visions to pursue after.

One thing in particular awakened inside of me as I was packing up the stuff I had accumulated after 18 months referred back to the power of the Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit:

“For the Kingdom of God does not consist in talk but in power.”

 1 Corinthians 4:20 (ESV) 

This is one of my favorite verses in The Bible.  God reminded me in the moments of packing up one life to start another that He never changes.  His power never changed!!  The things that happened throughout my time in Nicaragua don’t end in Nicaragua.  Just like Jesus never stopped speaking to us when the Bible was finished, mass-produced and sold for a profit.  God’s power is eternal and we can take it anywhere, I can take it everywhere I go.  As a missionary, I’ve told hundreds of stories about what God has done and what I’ve seen.  My stories only carry a glimpse at that power first hand.   To experience God, give Him the reigns.  We can get so caught up in what happened yesterday or so worried about what is going to happen that we miss the moments right in front of us.  That’s where Jesus is.  That’s where God sits with open arms calling out our names to come be with Him.

It was a journey from where I started to where I am now.  It took a lot of patience from my Eternal Father to not give up on me and move on with His other children.  Much of what I know about God and following His spirit, I’ve learned the hard way.  God is good though and I now have a strong urge to pursue after this power and make know the truth and love of our Eternal Father unto the lost people of the United States.  The truth of this matter is that God is rarely spoken of here and His presence is scarcely found.  He called us the Light of the world.  We, His children, are the light of the world.  The ambassadors of Heaven, who live, thrive and make known His presence and love to those who have no clue.  It’s about Jesus and as long as we hold tight to the grip of His hand, we have nothing to fear.  He never fails us!  He never failed me but used what I was feeling to make known His power and grace in the most beautiful of ways.

I am currently living in Indianapolis, Indiana, working with a non-profit community development ministry.  I would’ve never guessed myself to to live or work here but I know that Jesus’ power is the same here as it is everywhere else.  Just cause some don’t understand it doesn’t me it’s not real.  All it takes is one person, one step, and one leap of faith to dare to see the impossible made possible.

New Beginnings…

I stood there looking myself in the mirror thinking about who I am as a human being who confesses to believe in the God of The Bible.  I stood, looking myself eye to eye, trying to figure out whom this person is staring back at me.  The pale blueness of my eyes seemed to pierce through my very soul.  They were cold yet on fire.  Chilling the second rate qualities I possess and igniting those that God Himself crafted since the beginning of time. 

 

God, in all His wisdom and splendor, knows me only as a father would know His son.  The reality and apparentness of my sins and failures lurk around every corner seeking to blind side me with regrets and fears, pulling me down into the darkness of the abyss and away from my warm relationship with my creator.  However, it doesn’t matter how big and ugly these past sins make me seem, God looks past that old man, past the tissue, muscles, blood, bones, right through my heart and into the very center of who I am as a child and He calls me by my name. 

 

“Deep calls unto deep,” says the Apostle Paul.  “The Spirit of God intercedes on our behalf with groaning’s far to vast for words or emotions to explain.”  What deepness calls upon the deepness inside of me?  How can I access this deepness, what happens if I cannot?  That’s just confusing.  God calls us at our most pure form.  He travels to the inner parts of my life and calls out my potentiality.  The greatest thing about my relationship with God is that I have no control over how Jesus pursues me.  Like a lion, or a bird of prey, God follows me in order to win me back to Him, to rescue me from the troubles the enemy has positioned.  I doesn’t matter how far I run or in which direction I choose, God’s love triumphs over my rebellion and discontentment. 

 

There are moments, more that they’re not, when I do follow what God is leading me to do.  I use to talk about this like it was something really easy to do, back when I first came to know God.  But, in all actuality, it’s rather quite hard in respect to the ways we are taught to live life today.  My response to anything, in order to sound spiritual or ahead of my age, would be “Follow what God is leading you in…” or something like that.  Christianese at it’s finest.  It took me a while to see the difference is saying something like this and actually living it out. 

 

As I stood there in my bathroom, looking at my reflection through the toothpaste stand glass, I knew in that moment the central idea of who I am as a Son revolves around me actually following Jesus.  I’m talking about “out of body” experience type stuff where you have a realization of whom you are.  Like when you stand on a high mountain or jump into a freezing pool of water, the sensation leaves you for a second them comes rushing back to you like a mighty wind of awareness.    I knew in that moment that whatever, and I do mean whatever, God called me or led me to do I would do without question.  Because He is worth it!

 

Let’s backtrack for a second.  I came back to Nicaragua on the 19th of December after a 2-month furlough in The U.S.  I knew well before this return trip that I would not be able to spend the allotted time I wanted to spend once I returned.  God had been working with me throughout the last couple of months, showing me the in’s and out’s of what missions looks like from His perspective.  My ticket was purchased for a time period of two months and I knew upon my return to the U.S. I had to find a job and gather necessary marketing information for my current supporters as well as looking for new ones.  

 

My girlfriend and I had met in Nicaragua during my last trip and have spent a total of 2 ½ weeks together since we began dating.  We’ve been dating 5 months this month.  Travel and distance separated us but we knew we wanted to be together upon my return to the states to raise support.  We have been talking about marriage and knew that time spent together is important.  But, when you live in different states it becomes a little hard.  So I began applying for jobs in Indianapolis (city she lives in) centering my focus on different ministry openings.  I wanted to continue serving the Lord through the gifts He gave me in Music and outreach but it seemed that every job listening in those areas required things I didn’t have.  I knew I was following the Lord, my soul was crying out for what He wanted to do.  I just couldn’t see ahead of the curve unlike Him.  So, I had no idea what was coming. 

 

I got a text from my girlfriend one afternoon showing me a screenshot of the message she had received.  It was from one of her friends that worked for a non-profit missions organization in Indianapolis focusing on urban ministry and discipleship.  They wanted to know if I would be interested in working with them.  Of course I said yes.  I knew in that moment, God crafted this out of thin air, producing everything I needed/desired and placed it all in one place. 

 

Where I was a year ago to where God has taken me today is nothing short of crazy.  I live in a world of plans and formulas so the response to something spontaneous and different like this, is to look at it with confusion and misunderstanding.  Jesus talks about the realms of Heaven we will one day live and thrive in, but I cannot help but wonder why not now?  Why not live for the next life, the eternal life?  I’ve thought about this on many different occasions as I’m taken back to the mirror where the eyes of my reflection look through me, pierce through my character and persona calling out who I really am. 

 

In this world but not of it!”

 

God has asked me on many different occasions if I trust Him.  With my response comes a situation that really puts my faith and trust to the test.  I do trust Him.  It’s not something hard to say or even hard to live out but what we see with our own eyes makes it seems so much more than what it is.  I trust God with everything, where I’m going to live, my relationship with my family, my girlfriend, my job, money, future, everything!  The things I have, I’ve been given by God so it’s only right that I give them back to Him. 

 

As for my future, I’m following Jesus.  He’s led me to Nicaragua and now to Indianapolis.  I change locations like the wind changes directions but I’ve experienced things I could never replicate and I’ve made friends with the most unique people in the entire world.  I’ve also found the love of my life through where the Lord has led me, so I would say listening to Him has done wonders.  Indianapolis is in my future as well as everything my heart desires (marriage & ministry with my future wife).  All my dreams and wants have been taken to levels that far outreach my sight.  Because of all God has done for me and through me I will always praise Him.  Even through the confusing times when I have no clue as to what’s happening, it’s God who stands firm in His promises over me. 

 

As you stare at yourself in your mirror, allow God to use your reflecting eyes tell a story about your life in a way you’ve never seen nor heard before.  He knows your dreams and knows who you are, even when we lose sight of ourselves, He will never lose sight of who you really are to Him.  His child.

New Beginnings…

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I’m moving to Indianapolis.

I am very excited to let everyone know as of December 30th, I will be living in Indianapolis, Indiana working with a non-profit organization called MissionIndy.  I will be working along side them in the areas of ministry that include College Discipleship, Groups, Service Projects in the city and surrounding communities, Worship and the growth with my own partners for my ministry in Nicaragua.  I’ve been lacking on support here lately.  Mainly because I only had enough time to raise the support I needed for the year I’ve been here and through the Lord’s blessings, He kept the support coming in but now it’s time to head back to the states and hit up support raising on a grander scale.  Jesus is the King and He knows exactly what I need and when I need it.  This job that I have was basically given to me out of thin air.  Its crazy how the Lord works but when He moves in your life, you know it! It’s definitely not hidden by any means.  I’m excited about this move and eager to see what all Jesus has planned for these next couple of months.  I will be living and working in Indianapolis starting in January and will be there through July.  We’ll see all the doors Jesus is going to open.  It’s very exciting to know that you have the Lord of the Universe leading and guiding you, it may be difficult at times but in the end, it’s very rewarding and adventurous.  I love this life.  

There’s this video circulating around facebook at the moment with a Homeless man of Atlanta joining a christian recording artist while he’s recording a music video. Now, I know that much of what we see and hear about Jesus nowadays is pretty rough, but this man was truly a blessing in disguise. Homeless people in general have this crazy stereotype placed on them and we automatically act differently around them especially when they come up to us. This man, however, had the heart of God flowing through him and the music that was produced is exactly how we should approach life with God. Expect the unexpected. Life is good when lived out in love. “Hallelujah, He gets the highest praise!”

This is Kingdom worship!

Following Jesus is the most Unsafe thing you could ever do! Part. 1

­­­­­­­Following Jesus is the most unsafe thing you can ever do.

….And the most rewarding! 

“We and the world, my children, will always be at war.  Retreat is impossible.  Arm yourselves.”  – Leif Enger 

Part. 1

Life is hard!  A life being lived out with Jesus is even harder.  I’ve heard more times than I can count of how hard life is going to be when I grow up.  It all stems from relative truth and is a very important part of our lives to understand but sometimes a question arises in my mind that provokes me to think outside of my comfortable box and situate myself in the realms of faith, in the realms of uncertainty, risk and supernatural.  Thinking back on it all so far at the age of 24 closing in on the end of the year 2013, “How about your life?  Why have things gone the way they have?  Where was God in all that and do you know what you ought to do next, with a deep, settled confidence that it will work out?”  We all like to have the confidence to tell others what we’re going to do in life; what our career is and where we’re going to live and work for the next 5 years or so before we settle down, go on vacation to the Bahamas and buy that car we always wanted.  Its good to tell people those things.  This all began in High school when we had to tell people where we were thinking of going to college and what we wanted to study or be.  Setting up the rest of our lives like a badge we wear for others to see.

 

Where does God come in?

 

The reality is that God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are not popular terms to mention when talking about our lives or career.  Jesus doesn’t compute with the mold of the ordinary life.  He broke the mold a couple thousand years ago and challenged us to take a stand and be different, to follow after Him and pursue the extraordinary and that has caused strife and confusion with our future.  For some, following Jesus and letting go of everything else is easy but for some it’s not.  We tend to view our lives with Jesus through the lenses of the normal.  Jesus was never normal and we can’t view a life with Him through such lenses.  The truth is that “the description of the Christian life practically shouted in the New Testament compared with the actual life of most Christians today is…embarrassing.”  Jesus, when He was teaching and speaking to the masses on Mt. Eremos or the mount of Beatitudes, He taught and spoke about things that caused men and women to stir in their skin.  It was unlike anything, anyone had ever heard before and it shook the very foundation of which they had established themselves as people.  He challenged them to forsake it all, ALL!!!!!! He asked them to give it all up and follow Him.  Some probably walked away that day, others probably kept listening, not sure what to choose but were getting really close and others were sold out immediately. This was the thing they had been waiting their whole lives to hear and once they did nothing else mattered.  They had found out who we’re supposed to be and took it.

 

“The glory of God is man fully alive.” – Saint Irenaeus

 

Back during the second century there lived a man named Irenaeus who was Bishop of Lugdunum in Gaul.  He was an early church father and apologist.  He was a hearer of Polycarp, who in turn was traditionally a disciple of John the Evangelist.  Irenaeus wrote these simple yet powerful words about “The glory of God is man fully alive.”  Now for me and what I’ve learned throughout my short time, as a Christian compares nothing to the fact that God, the all-powerful father of the world whose presence makes the earth melts like wax, is staking His entire reputation on us becoming fully alive!  Are you kidding me?

I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full….” John 10:10

 

I thought that once I accepted Christ, I was forgiven and I was granted acceptance into Heaven (Eternal Life).  That is all true but the reality of this is that once you say Yes to God, you’ve basically pledged yourself to serve in His army by being fully alive, fully awakened at what is really going on around us.  Alive.

 

“I am the bread of life.” John 6:48

 

“Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him.” John 7:38

 

There is so much talk about eternal life that we miss what’s happening right in front of us.  A quote from the book “Waking the Dead” by John Eldredge, says this:

 

“I began to get the feeling of a man who’s been robbed.  I’m well aware that it’s life I need, and it’s life I’m looking for.  But the offer has gotten “interpreted” by well-meaning people to say, ‘Oh, well. Yes, of course…God intends life for you.  But that is eternal life, meaning, because of the death of Jesus Christ you can go to Heaven when you die.’  And that’s true…in a way.  But it’s like saying getting married means, ‘Because I’ve given you this ring, you will be taken care of in your retirement.’  And in the meantime?  Isn’t there a whole lot more to the relationship in the meantime?  (It’s in the meantime that we’re living out our days, by the way.)  Are we just lost at sea?  What did Jesus mean when he promised us life?

“I tell you the truth,” Jesus said to them, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life.” Luke 18:29-30

 

This war we wage with Christ is saturated throughout the New Testament.  You either fight or you die.  “Until we come to terms with war as the context of our days we will not understand life.  We will misinterpret 90% of what is happening around us and to us.”  Life is hard, unless you see it as a battle.  Before Jesus promised us life, he warned that a thief would try to steal, kill and destroy it.  I know enough to know that I don’t know that much.  But one thing I do understand clearly than the rest is: we don’t understand what’s happening around us or to us or to those we love, and we are practically clueless when it comes to the weight of our own lives and the glory that’s being…held back.  Some of us don’t see it yet, some do.  Some did and lost it long ago but it’s really easy to recover.  Warning: A life with Jesus is the most unsafe thing you will ever choose to do in this life. 

 

We were made for more. In the movie “The Matrix,” Morpheus has a conversation with Neo that goes something like this:

 

MORHPEUS: I can see it in your eyes.  You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he’s expecting to wake up.  Ironically, this is not far from the truth.  Do you believe in fate, Neo?

NEO: No.

MORPHEUS: Why?

NEO: Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life.

MORPHEUS: I know exactly what you mean.  Let me tell you why you’re here.  You’re here because you know something.  What you know you can’t explain.  You feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life.  There’s something wrong with the world.  You don’t know what it is.  But it’s there, like a splinter in your mind, driving your mad.  It is this feeling that has brought you to me…

MORPHEUS: You are a slave, Neo.  Like everyone else you were born into bondage, into a prison that you cannot taste or smell or touch.  A prison for your mind.  Unfortunately, no one can be told what the matrix is.  You must see it for yourself.

That truth that we cannot be told, but have to see it for ourselves spans the very foundation of our relationship with God.  That’s why most people don’t know that choosing Jesus is dangerous because you become aware of what it happening around you.  It’s a war.  A bloody battle between good and evil with us in the middle.  You have more significance that you could ever know.  Look at it like this:

 

Revelation 12:1-5,7-8,17

“a great and wondrous sign appeared in heaven: a woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head.  She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth.  Then another sign appeared in heaven: an enormous red dragon with seven heads and ten horns and seven crowns on his heads…the dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that he might devour her child the moment it was born.  She gave birth to a son, a male child, who will rule all the nations with an iron scepter…and there was a war in heaven.  Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back.  But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven…Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to make war against the rest of her offspring – those who obey God’s commandments and hold to the testimony of Jesus. 

 

We, who stand in the field of freedom, taking upon us the adoption of sons and daughters into the arms of the almighty, might stand firm in the truth spoken over us since the beginning of time, fighting the fight and running the race to make our father’s name known among the nations.  Let us not lose heart.  Focus our gaze on Jesus and fight through the crap this world seeks to combat us with.

 

“Therefore we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 

2 Corinthians 4:16-18